So we recently moved…again.
Ha. It was the 4th time moving in our 5 year marriage. And this time
with 2 kids. But honestly, this time was so much different. Every move up to
this one was all about bigger and better. I thought that we needed all this
room and stuff to make a rental feel like a home. 2 years ago, I was set on
buying a house and tried to convince my husband too, but God changed my heart
instead and we continued to rent. We thought that we could do it all. Rent a 3
bedroom, plus save for a house, not live on a budget…all
on one income. God has a funny way of bringing us back to reality though.
I’ve learned through all my experiences that God does
really use all our decisions for good and to His glory…if we
let him. It was shortly after our son was born that God was putting this vision
on mine and my husband’s heart. We felt like God was calling us to downsize. We
looked around our house and realized we had way too much stuff and room and
maybe it was time for us to take a step back and simplify so that we can see
God’s desire for our life a little clearer. Writing that sentence today seems
nice and easy. Like it all makes sense and would work out perfectly. But
honestly, those decisions for us lead us down a road that we were not prepared
for. We felt like we were opening flood gates to things that we didn’t even
know were flood gates. Life was weighing down on us and we knew that either we
were making a horrible mistake or that we were making the right one and the enemy
was throwing everything at us to make us stop.
God has
a funny way of bringing us back to reality though.
But
after all of that, here I am currently sitting our new place. We moved from a 3
bedroom, 2 level, 2 car garage townhome to a 2 bedroom apartment with shared
laundry, outdoor parking (though we found out we get a garage in about a
month!! Praise God!), but what is so interesting about this place is that it
has felt like home SO much faster than any place that Matt and I have lived.
Everything feels so right and every morning we wake up so happy with these
decisions we made. I believe that it is because what God has for us here and
what He will teach us and where He is bringing us. What dreams He will unfold
here for us, and what opportunities will be had here.
I had
to take a break from blogging because God wanted to change something in me. He
wanted me to focus on the dreams and visions that He has given for my life and
the lives of my family. I had to die to myself so that I could live freely in
the life that God has given me. I am a work in progress and honestly, I will
always be a work in progress as long as I am here on earth.
That I
could live freely in the life that God has given me
We
live our life with more purpose and intention these days. When we moved we got
rid of a lot of stuff and even after we moved in we got rid of even more. I don’t
want to have stuff or do stuff just to have it or do it. Everything has an
intentional purpose. Maybe I’m doing that because I realized that God has an
intentional purpose for my life, my husband’s life and the lives of my 2 kids.
God has an intentional purpose for your life too. Cling to Jesus and He will
reveal himself to you. My journey isn’t about what I can do, but what God can
do through me. I have this new found confidence that isn’t based on my skills
or abilities, but it is based on the One who is IN me and His might and power.
It
has been a long and tough road for awhile and honestly, I don’t think that the
road will get any less tough, but I have set my eyes on the One who has brought
me to this place. The One who is greater than the one in the world. The One who
has already won the battle. The One who loves and cares for me so deeply and is
walking along right beside me. To the One who CHOSE to die for me and allow me
the opportunity to live with Him forever in Heaven. That is what I focus on
these days.
To the
One who CHOSE to die for me and allow me the opportunity to live with Him
forever in Heaven.
It is
hard most days especially because a lot of decisions that I make go against
mainstream thought, but I would rather look foolish in the eyes of the world
than look foolish in the eyes of the Lord.
I
think the best part of this story is that it isn’t over, in fact, it is just
beginning. God has opened up doors that I have been praying about for almost 10
years, but the good news, man is it totally worth the wait. But that is a story
for another day and another blog. For now, I will leave you with this. Your
life has great intention and purpose around it. Do not give up on the dreams
that God has placed on your heart. And SEEK Him, daily, in all circumstances.
CHOOSE Him over anything the world offers, because what He offers will ALWAYS
be far greater!
Cling to
Jesus and He will reveal himself to you
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