Rooted Faith

Honesty is the best policy, right? Well I want to start this journey being honest with you. This is way harder than I anticipated. They say the first step is always the hardest, but really step 2, 3, 4… can be just as hard. It’s after step 1 that the doubt and questioning come in.

I’ve had a pretty tough last week. With sickness and exhaustion wrecking our house, I have not had a lot of motivation to do much-especially pray and seek God about what my next post should be. I have had a couple good breakdowns that I am not too proud of, but they have brought me to a place of honesty with myself and with God.

If you want to know who I am, then welcome to the club. Even after almost 28 years on this earth and following Christ for the majority of those years, I realized that I am continually learning about myself and God. I think that is what is so precious about God himself. He isn’t asking us to come to Him all figured out with no sin to work on. What He does is extend His ever so amazing grace and welcomes us, crap and all, to His family. I am not perfect, though my perfectionist side would never want to admit that, but I have found abundant love and grace in my weaknesses. As someone who has spent a lot of her life proving to other people that I am worth something, that I deserve to be respected, that I am a different person now, I am tired. I am tired of living life for the approval of others. God is the final judge of my life. That is who I am to be seeking approval from. I want Him, at the end of my days, to look me in the eyes and smile and say ‘Well Done, good and faithful servant.’ But if I want that, I’ve got to start being honest.

I thought that starting this blog was going to be about all of you. Reaching people through the worldwide web, talking about who Jesus is and what it looks like to follow him, but what I realized is that this is for me as much as it is for you. The whole reason behind this blog is to experience rooted faith. A faith that is so intertwined with who God is that no matter what happens in life we are still clinging to and praising Jesus. I realized that I need to work on this too. This journey isn’t the end of something that I have come through and now get to tell you about. This journey is about the here and now; the daily struggle of finding myself and my purpose in my new chapter. And right now that new chapter is being a mom. This blog isn’t just for moms or stay at home moms like me, though I will talk about my family a lot. Ha. But this is a place to find true honesty and grace-things I am finding for myself too.

I am rooted in the truth of who God says I am.  There are many days where I fight really hard against the lies the enemy is telling me, but I pray that through this journey we get to find out who God says we all are. The best part is, I know what He says about you and me is really awesome and special. I know that God is good and that He fights for those who love Him. I am excited. I needed this. I need you. I need God.