Why a blog?

I think I have questioned starting a blog for almost a year now. I had one that I started in college and I did enjoy it, but it wasn't something that I was consistent with. Since becoming a mom about a year and a half ago, I have struggled with God on what my ministry is these days. I have been involved with ministry with young adults for almost 7 years with my husband, but since having our daughter it was hard for me to continue since my heart was always at home. 

I have such a heart to be in relationship with people and share what the Lord has done and is doing in my life so I discussed what that looked with God. I spent a lot of time doing things my own way instead of trusting and relying on God’s timing and purpose. I realized that if I was ever going to do this whole blog thing for real, I was going to have to realize a lot of things about myself and about God. I am not a writer, most days I do not feel worthy of anyone listening to what I have to say, but I realized that God wanted to still use me in my new season of life. I fought starting a blog for so long because I felt like it was what everyone does and I didn’t want to jump on that bandwagon too. But every time I prayed about where God had me, He kept pressing on my heart that He wasn’t done with my leadership and abilities, but that it was going to look a lot different than what I had done in the past. 

I am really good at talking myself out of things. Excuses have become my new friend. But I no longer want to live in that. I have read so many things from women that I look up to and inspire to be and all I hear is ‘You are worth it!’, ‘Chase your dreams’, ‘God has something for you exactly where you are at’. What I realized while reading all this encouraging stuff was that if I wanted to encourage and inspire others, I had to start allowing myself to be inspired and encouraged by other people too. I cannot do this alone and nor do I want to. 

So here I go, I am taking the leap, I am jumping in and seeing where this goes. I heard one day that failure is not trying- so rather than seeing failure as no one reading this, I am seeing it is as, ‘well at least I tried’. The rest is in God’s hands. So here we go, I pray you will take this journey with me. Each and every one of you that reads this mean so much to me and know that even though we may not know each other-I care and pray for you. You are something special. I know that because I realized that about myself-a stay at home mom that is trying to figure out this thing called life. God can and will do great things whether or not I ever see the tangible. I trust him with this.  

Check out my next post coming soon as to who I am and why I am ‘rooted in the Hills.’